“What is the lesson you learned from God?"

March 15, 2013, Friday afternoon.

After I dropped my son Dillon and my daughter Yeri at the church (because there was a pre-teen class),

I went to my wife’s workplace with my youngest daughter Karis.

It was because I promised to pick up my wife from her workplace and have dinner with her in Japanese town.

I don’t know how the conversation started between Karis and I when we were waiting for my wife to come out to the car.  But Karis talked a mother who had three children and said to me ‘She has a lot of children.’

So I said to her, ‘Your mother had four children.’  Haha

Then I told Karis about the first baby, Charis, who died.

After a while, she asked me: “What is the lesson you learned from God?”

When she asked me that question, I answered right away ‘It was God’s love.’

I actually experienced God’s love in depth through my first baby Charis' death, I told Karis that I learned God’s love.

So Karis asked me how God could kill the baby and how could you learn God’s love through Charis’ death?

In Karis’ perspective, she can surely ask this question.

When I heard that question, I hesitated to answer little bit because I wasn’t sure how to explain to Karis the deep love of God that I learned from God.

At that time, I heard Karis saying to herself ‘God killed the baby as God killed His Son Jesus ….’

Perhaps Karis seemed to try to understand what I said.

At that moment I saw my wife coming out of her workplace.

So I told Karis ‘There she comes.’

So she looked outside through the back window and we waited for her to come to the car. Haha

When my wife rode in the car, I told her about Karis and my conversation so that my wife could answer Karis’ question.  But Karis told me not to say any more about what we talked about.

So I told my wife in Korean that she asked about what I learned from God through the death of our first baby, Charis.

And then I told her that I couldn’t answer Karis.

I told her that Karis seems like she doesn’t want me to share it with her.

Then my wife told me that ‘Maybe Karis just wanted to talk to you.’

As we were heading toward the restaurant for dinner, we no longer talked about the first baby, Charis.

But I wanted to tell Karis in my mind: ‘Although God took Charis away from mom and daddy, God gave you Karis as a gift.’