I should no longer live like this.

People can see only m actions.

So I can certainly prove to them that I am a right evangelist

By my action as I please them.

So I can try to show them that I am doing everything right through my action. 

I can even make my way right in my own eyes (Prov. 21:2).

As I do so, I can live opposite to the gospel that I preach to them in my heart.

I can pretend to live a holy life in front of them.

But I can never pretend to live a holy life before God.

The reason is because God is searching my heart. 

This is what the Bible says:

“Since I know, O my God, that You try the heart and delight in uprightness …”(1 Chron. 29:17),

“But You know me, O LORD; You see me;

And You examine my heart's attitude toward You  …” (Jere. 12:3),

“…For the righteous God tries the hearts and minds” (Ps. 7:9). 

Do I really believe these words of truth?

If I truly believe these words, can I continue living like this?

Shouldn't I be devoted to cultivating my heart before God rather than my actions before people?

Why are you James so conscious of people?

Why don’t you fear God?

I can’t imagine how countless sins that I am committing sins against God in my heart

Than to sin with my words and actions. 

But what are you doing, James?

I no longer want to live a religious life in front of people.

I want to live a life of faith before God.

I no longer want to throw away my conscience in order to please people.

I want to please God who searches my conscience and my heart.

I want to walk in a manner worthy of the Lord (Col. 1:10).

I want to be recognized as ‘a man who pleases God’ (Heb. 11:5). 

If I truly please God, then I will be approved by people as well (Rom. 14:18).