Unbalanced self-examination

I personally think it is very important

To reflect myself in the spiritual mirror that is the Word of God

And to confront myself that is reflected in that mirror of the Word.

But my problem is that

I look at my reflection in the mirror of God’s Word with my own eyes

Instead with they eyes of the Lord.

Here what I see with my own eyes means

I only see my own sinful image in the mirror of God’s holy Word

And I suffer from extreme discouragement, guilt conscience, and sense of shame.

The limitation of looking at myself with my own eyes is that

More sins that are continually being exposed by the holy Word of God (Rom. 5:20).

This is wrong and twisted self-introspection.

The wrong self-reflection only looks at myself with my own eyes.

In other words, the wrong self-reflection

Makes me to look at only myself

And not Jesus Christ who died on the cross to take away all my sins and to forgive me.

The right self-examination is

To look at Jesus Christ who bore all my sins and died on the cross (Heb. 12:2).

Although I have to realize and acknowledge all the sins

That are being exposed continually by the holy Word of God,

I dwell more and more in God’s abundant and increasing grace with assurance of God’s forgiveness,

Trusting and relying on the Jesus Christ and His cross

As I confess and repent my sins (Rom. 5:20).

Therefore, I confess “I am what I am because of God’s grace” (1 Cor. 15:10).

I no longer want to do the wrong and twisted self-introspection.

Rather, I want to have balanced and correct self-examination.

Therefore, I want to see myself with the eyes of the Lord.

In the eyes of the Lord, I want to see myself as precious and honor child of God

So that I will be able to love myself with His love (Isa. 43:4).