Conclusion

The Lord let me meet my wife, the best spouse, as the gift of precious grace to me, who has never dated.  It was like a miracle to me.  I was preparing myself for my marriage and my future mate, believing that the Lord would provide my spouse if it is the Lord's will, without any expectation of unrealistic or realistic about marriage.  To me, the Lord has made me to meet my wife in His way in His time and made me to fall in love with her.  I still remember Jane came down to Los Angles, where I live, from San Francisco, where she used to live, without sleeping for about 35 hours and I proposed her on a bench near Santa Monica beach, “Are you willing to sacrifice with me to the Lord?”  But she didn’t say anything.  So I just kissed her.  And after six months, we got married.  Haha.  I still remember when Jane and I was having our wedding worship, I remembered the things that had happened to us from the time I first met my wife to the moment we were having the wedding worship, like a video, and Psalms 34:8 came to my mind, “Taste and see that the Lord is good ".  At that moment, my heart moved and I couldn’t stop crying.  I saw my wife crying beside me even though we didn’t have any conversation at the moment.  This is how the Lord made us to meet and to get marry to start the marriage life together.

My wife and I had never quarreled during the period of six month, starting from the time we first me until we got marry.  But when we went on a honeymoon, we fought for the first time.  Since then, we had a lot of conflicts.  One of the reasons was because we were so different from each other.  And we didn’t know each other very well and didn’t know how to love and respect each other even though I had been reading and studying in preparation for my marriage.  Haha.  Now I cannot remember well when and how we had conflicts so many times.  Haha.  What I remember clearly still is that God gave my wife and I the precious gift of life, first baby “Joo Young” in Korean (meaning: “The Lord’s glory”) or "Charis" in English (meaning: “grace”) and she was in the Los Angeles Children Hospital intensive care unit (ICU) for 55 days and she died in my arms after some of the family members had the final worship in ICU.  For my wife and I, the first baby's death was a great trial.  But in that great trial, the Lord gave is Psalms 63:3, "Thy lovingkindness is better than my life, my lips shall praise thee" and enabled us to experience our Savior God’s marvelous and wonderful love for us and to praise God (Gospel song: “My Savior’s Love”) with our hearts and our lips in tears.  At that time, I realized little bit through the death of the first baby Charis that God's love is holy love.  Then the Lord gave us the second child “Dillon” (meaning: “truthfulness and faithfulness”) and enabled us to experience that God’s love is restoring love.  Through the third child Yeri (English name is “Sophie”), the Lord allowed us to experience God’s abundant love.  And through the youngest child “Yeun” (Korean name that means “Jesus’ grace”) or “Karis” (same name as our first baby “Charis” that means “grace”), God made us to confess “God is love.”  By that love of God, my wife and I, our children and our family came thus far to this day.  The Lord has made many good memories of our family for us.  And because of those good memories, He has erased the bad memories that were in us.  We have come to this day, enjoying the peace that the Lord has given us.

The dream for the family that the Lord has given me is to build the Lord-centered family: The family that the Lord receives glory, the family that is submissive to the authority of the Word of the Lord, the family that loves each other with the Lord’s love and the family that suffers for the Lord and His church.  I hope and pray that the Lord build my family and your family as the family witness community that shines the light of Jesus Christ in these days where there are lots of broken families.  May God fulfill this dream in the Lord.